While I'm Waiting

The news and email have been full of information and opinions about the H1N1 and the vaccine. I am totally up in arms about it - so much so that I've sort of worked myself into a bit of a tither. I've never gotten a flu shot (at least not for several years) and we really try to go as natural as possible around here. I rarely take medication and thankfully am rarely sick with more then a runny nose and maybe a sore throat once a year. We try to let the kids' illnesses run their course and keep the antibiotics until absolutely necessary. I guess I tend to be of the mindset that we need to let our bodies build up natural immunities and fight what we can.

I am also not sure that a lot of this isn't hype and hysteria. We regularly get emails telling us natural course of action to take and why the flu shot isn't necessary. Yes we need to question the sources and we need to really weigh the information. There again lies some difficulty with family being in the medical business although the plus side is we are able to get things checked out very quickly and conveniently. Tough sometimes though. Especially when it comes to serious issues like this.


So anyway, I've really been struggling with this especially given that I am now in the "vulnerable" group. Which gives me even more questions.

So I've been praying. A lot. About discernment. And why can't I just be told blatantly with a big billboard - "Alison - do this"! I know it doesn't work this way. I also have a tendency to over read overwork over think things. Like the following:

Today I was reading an email about the flu and the vaccine and again, just really pondering what I should be doing - for me and for the kids. As I got to the section on pregnancy, my heart started beating faster and I was just like "Ahhh - I'm so confused - what do I do?" Then I caught the words of the song on the radio. Read the lyrics:

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently,

I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait I
will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

And while I listened to the song, it brought tears to my eyes and get this - I actually felt the baby move for the first time. So, more tears.

So at this point I am waiting. For what? Til the 20 week point? To get more opinions? I don't know. That's my over analyzing part. So I'm trying to be patient, to be trusting, to follow good health practices and just wait.

By the way, I recognized the song but not who it was by. I actually emailed the radio station who relayed that it was "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller from the movie Fireproof (watch the song video).

The Luckiest

I just heard this song for the first time today and it made me think of this.

I don't get many things right the first time In fact, I am told that a lot Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls Brought me here

And where was I before the day That I first saw your lovely face? Now I see it everyday

And I know That I am I am I am The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you In a house on a street where you lived? Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes I see one pair that I recognize And I know

That I am I am I am The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties And one day passed away in his sleep And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong

That I know That I am I am I am The luckiest

The Luckiest by Ben Folds

Missing you!

What do I want to be when I grow up?

For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a teacher or an airline stewardess. In many ways I think I fulfilled my dreams. No I didn't go to teacher's college but I did get my Resource Teacher Certificate as a post grad degree. I do currently teach young children. In nursery school settings, in home settings and at church. I tend to be resourceful and many people I think, do learn from me.

As for the stewardess? Well that obviously didn't pan out but I certainly have a love for travelling - which is probably why I wanted to be one. So while I may not get to see the many places of the world for free or less cost, I also don't have the jet lag, the time away from home and the hectic schedules. (Well I do have that but oh well). And really, we have been able to do so much travelling in our lives. Thankfully Drew is pretty good with wanting to see new places each time too.

So am I happy doing what I am doing? You bet. I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a careprovider, a teacher, a healer, a volunteer, a driver, a traveller, an artist, a creator, a homemaker, a sewer, a gardener and much, much more.

October LOAD

A new chapter begins. I finished learning and now I am going to try creating again. Or catching up. Or reliving the memories. Or go insane. I don't know. But I'm ready to try because for some reason, just having the actual challenge works for me. I get pages done. Few are rarely my own creation but rather lifted form others more original then I. But I don't care. They are still our memories and they are still fun to create. So here goes.

Here is my layout for today. It is a scraplift but I don't know from where. I will come back when I find it and I will be more diligent to write down the sources in the future. TFL!

September 2009 Recap

Exercise - 7th; 8th; 9th; 13th; 14th; 15th; 23rd; 25th; 28th

Books Read
A Woman's Place;
Have a New Kid by Friday

Movies Seen - Anne of Green Gables; When Did You Last See Your Father?; Love Comes Softly; Bolt; For One More Day; Annie; Run Fat Boy Run; Million Dollar Baby; House of Sand; Moll Flanders; Love's Unending Promise; Love's Long Journey;

Special Events
- Will, Preston Birthday (12th);
- LSNED (blogging)
- U2 concert with Melissa!!!
- My birthday (37)
- haircuts (girls)
- 22nd- meet and greet school barbq
- Drew men's retreat (25-27)
- Melanie's baby shower (26th)
- RR with church friends (27th)

Travel - ...Thunder Bay (Aug 22 - Sept 5)

Significant Purchases/ changes - n/a